Naptime musings

Ahhh...freedom. At least partial freedom. Unfortunately, all my babies do not nap at the same time yet. Luci is still on a two nap schedule so her afternoon nap starts about the time Mari is waking up. But Zoe still sleeps for two to two and a half hours in the afternoon, so at least things are quieter for awhile. One child is like nothing these days. I keep thinking about when Zoe was tiny and she was all we had and I had so much more freedom. I could run errands, go to the park, do anything I wanted. I can't do anything anymore. It is too dangerous to go to the park. I cannot keep track of all three of them, can't rescue a climber stuck on the monkey bars or chase a runaway with Luci in my arms and she won't stay in a stroller anymore. I can't run errands because one of them always begins to scream to get out of the cart or stroller and that is a physical impossiblity since I can't chase her. And I can't handle the screaming for very long anymore before I just cannot think. I'm really hoping this stage will pass quickly. I'm hoping we will get to a point where Zoe can be trusted, like Mari can, to be obediant for the most part. That is the key. Right now she will take it into her head to run away from us and she is not afraid of anything. It is going to take some serious discipline work to get her to the point where I can go out in public with all three of them alone. So I have not gone anywhere during the day yet, except to one Mary Kay party. We've lived here for over a month and I haven't gone anywhere alone. I know I have to eventually, but I'm afraid Zoe will get lost, kidnapped, hit by a car. I just don't trust her at all.

I wish they all would nap at the same time. I sure could use a nap myself. I got about fours hours of sleep last night, which is good compared to when Brad was gone and I was teaching Luci to sleep through the night. But four hours is really not enough to have the energy fo these kids. Luci was fussy until about 2am and Zoe woke up crying for her "boppys" once, unusal for her lately. She has been sleeping like a champ. I think however, that both Zoe and Mari are getting out of bed at night. I frequently go into their room in morning and there are toys and books in bed with them that were not there when I tucked them in. So far they are not venturing out of the bedroom and they are very quiet about it, so I don't really care. I think Luci is drinking my coke. I better go