exhaustion, insomnia, and co-sleeping

Zoe's second birthday is tomorrow...er, I mean today...and Laura(my wonderful MIL) is here and things have been a bit busy. So I haven't written much. Not that anyone cares except me. I am also functioning in a fog of exhaustion. The girls are taking turns being up all night. Mari is sleeping with us again tonight. Still freaked about the "mask". But I really don't mind. According to all my Attachment Parenting friends, co-sleeping is a great way to bond...and that is what we need with Mari right now...bonding. I like a lot of AP ideas, like extended breastfeeding(I did try, though I did not have much luck inducing lactation for my adopted babies), baby wearing, positive discipline, but I used to draw the line at co-sleeping. I have had a hard enough time sleeping at all the last 2 years without tiny feet pounding me all night. Last night Mari about strangled me. She flung herself over in a sound sleep and landed on my neck. Not a fun way to wake up. I usually just find it more than I can handle. I NEED my sleep or I am afraid I will abuse someone. Most likely myself...but I know my limits. Good (or at least four hours of it) sleep is a necessity and I have never gotten a good nights sleep with a baby or small child in my bed. But I am willing to do this for a little while for Mari. At this point, I am willing to do just about anything to get inside that little girl's soul.