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I just spent 20 minutes reading a conversation in the orthodoxy that made my head spin. I'm not sure why I read it, I knew from the original post that there would be nothing there I hadn't heard or thought about before, but morbid curiosity...I just couldn't stop reading. However, it would take more than money to get me to participate in a discussion like that. My overall feeling from the whole conversation is the same one I get when talking to my parents...that if we could just get into each other's heads and stop trying to use words this would all be cleared up very quickly. Vocabulary, personal experience of specific concepts, it all clouds and twists the meanings behind what we are actually saying. My parents and I can use exactly the same words and mean something completely different. It is very frustrating. I actually did not read the whole discussion because I was starting to feel that frustration. I used to love the jolly bantering of intellectual Christianity. About five years ago I would have sought out a sparing match of that kind. Something dramatic has changed. I not only find conversations like that frustrating, I usually come away feeling that it was pointless, not even enjoyable so why bother. So much hinges on these concepts, life and death and eternity, that mere talking just seems useless. I just can't talk about God anymore. He has gotten too big for me.

or something.