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May. 29th, 2005 07:29 pmI've written several private entries lately. I do that on occasion, but never as much as I've been doing lately. I used to just let it all hang out here. I wonder why I'm feeling more private all of a sudden? Strange.
We've had a slow weekend. I wish we'd planned something fun to do, but we really didn't. I've spent the weekend doing random housework and shopping. We were supposed to have Brads 1SGT and his family over tomorrow for lunch, but they canceled. So we are on our own. Brad wants to go to Sea World. I'm kind of balking at that as I KNOW it will be insanely crowded. But, we'll see.
Luci is talking up a storm lately. She really seems to have had a total language break through. Finally. She likes to try saying really big words too. Her sister's are still obsessed with dinosaurs and she practices on dino names. Her version of "brontosaurus" is priceless. She is going back and forth with using the potty. Some days she does really well and won't have any accidents and will come to me if she has to go. Other days she just seems to forget all about it and will even refuse if I ask her to sit on the potty. I'm going with the flow. She'll get it eventually. I hope.
Zoe's had some ear issues lately. I'm about convinced now that she just has a wax buildup in her ear, but we may have to go to the doc to get it cleaned out. She has tubes in so I can't put anything in there to wash it out. But it is driving her crazy and she hasn't slept well for two nights. She fell asleep on the couch this afternoon laying on a warm washcloth and some of it drained out finally. At least I her ear canal looks open now when I checked it with a flashlight. I'm hoping that was the only problem, but we'll wait until tomorrow morning and see. She slept with us last night and no one got much sleep. She says it hurts, but then doesn't really cry or get upset and doesn't have a fever or anything, so I'm confused. Usually if something truly hurts she gets really upset. It almost seems like she is just saying it is irritating. Which I imagine it would be if your ear was completely blocked. I'll probably take her in anyway, just for my own peace of mind.
Mari is her usual healthy, cheerful self, though she has acted really angry a few times lately. She doesn't usually display much of a temper, but lately if I tell her something she doesn't like or ask her to do something she doesn't like and I turn my back, if I happen to look back at her quickly I will often surprise a really ugly expression on her face. I've talked to her about it several times, asking why she is angry and trying to get her to talk to me, but so far no big breakthroughs or confessions. She has also gotten more affectionate lately, coming to me and asking to be hugged or held. She has never done much of that. I've always had to make the effort and reach out to her. The thought crossed my mind the other day...is it possible, two years after she came to live with us, that she is just now feeling safe and comfortable enough to express herself like this? She's also been fighting with her sister's more, telling them what to do and arguing with them and...well, asserting herself more than she used to. I find it sad that it took this long, but I'm glad she is finally letting us see her. I would never have thought it would take this long, she was only two (28 mos) when she came to us, but perhaps it has. I've often depaired of ever really KNOWING her, as a person, and not just someone I feed and clothe. Though it makes things a little harder to deal with around here, a little more stressful, I certainly don't want her to clam up again. This is all really subtle and an outsider might never see these things. I mostly feel them and can't really put my finger on exactly what it is. Just that she is...putting herself out there in a way I've never seen before. That has to be a good thing.
We've had a slow weekend. I wish we'd planned something fun to do, but we really didn't. I've spent the weekend doing random housework and shopping. We were supposed to have Brads 1SGT and his family over tomorrow for lunch, but they canceled. So we are on our own. Brad wants to go to Sea World. I'm kind of balking at that as I KNOW it will be insanely crowded. But, we'll see.
Luci is talking up a storm lately. She really seems to have had a total language break through. Finally. She likes to try saying really big words too. Her sister's are still obsessed with dinosaurs and she practices on dino names. Her version of "brontosaurus" is priceless. She is going back and forth with using the potty. Some days she does really well and won't have any accidents and will come to me if she has to go. Other days she just seems to forget all about it and will even refuse if I ask her to sit on the potty. I'm going with the flow. She'll get it eventually. I hope.
Zoe's had some ear issues lately. I'm about convinced now that she just has a wax buildup in her ear, but we may have to go to the doc to get it cleaned out. She has tubes in so I can't put anything in there to wash it out. But it is driving her crazy and she hasn't slept well for two nights. She fell asleep on the couch this afternoon laying on a warm washcloth and some of it drained out finally. At least I her ear canal looks open now when I checked it with a flashlight. I'm hoping that was the only problem, but we'll wait until tomorrow morning and see. She slept with us last night and no one got much sleep. She says it hurts, but then doesn't really cry or get upset and doesn't have a fever or anything, so I'm confused. Usually if something truly hurts she gets really upset. It almost seems like she is just saying it is irritating. Which I imagine it would be if your ear was completely blocked. I'll probably take her in anyway, just for my own peace of mind.
Mari is her usual healthy, cheerful self, though she has acted really angry a few times lately. She doesn't usually display much of a temper, but lately if I tell her something she doesn't like or ask her to do something she doesn't like and I turn my back, if I happen to look back at her quickly I will often surprise a really ugly expression on her face. I've talked to her about it several times, asking why she is angry and trying to get her to talk to me, but so far no big breakthroughs or confessions. She has also gotten more affectionate lately, coming to me and asking to be hugged or held. She has never done much of that. I've always had to make the effort and reach out to her. The thought crossed my mind the other day...is it possible, two years after she came to live with us, that she is just now feeling safe and comfortable enough to express herself like this? She's also been fighting with her sister's more, telling them what to do and arguing with them and...well, asserting herself more than she used to. I find it sad that it took this long, but I'm glad she is finally letting us see her. I would never have thought it would take this long, she was only two (28 mos) when she came to us, but perhaps it has. I've often depaired of ever really KNOWING her, as a person, and not just someone I feed and clothe. Though it makes things a little harder to deal with around here, a little more stressful, I certainly don't want her to clam up again. This is all really subtle and an outsider might never see these things. I mostly feel them and can't really put my finger on exactly what it is. Just that she is...putting herself out there in a way I've never seen before. That has to be a good thing.
