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Why, oh why, do I want to crawl in a hole somewhere and disappear? My head hurts. I'm so tired. And I have absolutely no reason to feel this way. Maybe I'm coming down with something. Illness would be a relief because I'm desperately afraid that "it" is coming back. You know, the dark cloud. I feel like I'm crouching down under it holding a baseball bat and swinging at it helplessly, determined not to let it get me again, but, of course, the bat just goes right through it and it is still moving down, closer and closer to my head. I think I'll go take some more vitamins. Maybe that will clear the air. *sigh* I wish this wasn't such a constant battle.

Mari was so cute this morning. I guess she really does like preschool. We got up late and were moving pretty slow. I told her to get dressed. I had her clothes all laid out for her. But this direction was ignored the first three times I gave it. Finally, after I had gotten Luci her drink and turned to find Mari sitting on the floor reading a book, still not dressed, I said "Mari, do you *want* to go to preschool?" She leaped up and said "YES!" and began stripping off her nightgown as fast as she could. It was hilarious to watch her get all tangled up in the sleeves in her rush and panic that she might miss preschool.

I wish I had someone to talk to about several important issues. I'm not used to "secrets". I'm not used to keeping my mouth shut. It is really hard.

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Not that I'm LOOKING for controversy, but...Wow. This is disturbing.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2005/10/17/AR2005101701311.html?nav=hcmodule