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Okay, so, I was really sick for the last four days. Horrible congestion that started in my chest and moved up to my head, hacking and coughing, aching joints and muscles, difficulty breathing to the point I used an inhaler a few times. Complete misery actually. Night before last, I was so achey I couldn't sleep at all or even lay still and took some Tylenol and woke up an hour later DRENCHED in sweat. So drenched I had to change my clothes and sheets. Gross. I apparently had a fever. Didn't even know it, since it never occured to me to take my temp. Heh. Anyway, I'm feeling 20 million times better today and loving it. It snowed today and is bitterly cold, but this afternoon we went swimming at the gym, then to Maria's dance lesson, and then I took the girls to McDonalds. We haven't been there in AGES, since I think of it as poison. But I guess I don't really think of it as poison since I let the girls talk me into it. I'd have prefered Chick-fil-a, but they wanted McDs. I must admit their french fries do taste sinfully good. What drug do they put on those things? Anyhoo, a little treat.

Now we are home and the girls are playing, loudly, in the basement, so I had free moment to update. I've had a few people ask me if I'm okay, and the answer is, yes, I am. Thank you for your prayers and support. They really do mean a lot to me. We are managing quite well. Far better than just survival most of the time and I mean that.

I heard the Savage Garden song, I Knew I Loved You Before I Met You on the radio on the way home. It is such a cheesy song, and yet, it made me feel gooey and glowey when I looked in the rear view mirror at my car full of girlies. I think of that as Zoe's song, because it says exactly what I felt about the her birth and adoption...that gaping, aching hole in my heart was just instantly gone when I held her in my arms and knew she was my daughter. She was the first, so it is just fitting for her. But really, it is about all of them. About Brad. About my whole weird little family. Absolutely precious. Miraculous. Mine.

"Maybe it's intuition
but some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant
And there it goes,
I think I found my best friend
I know that it might sound
more than a little crazy
but I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life"