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Mar. 29th, 2010 11:40 amHow can my daughter be this big? How is it possible? It is frightening and crazy and makes me feel a little dizzy. I literally feel like I could wake up tomorrow and she could be a grown woman. She put on jeans today that I bought her two weeks ago and they were TOO TIGHT!
She is nine, okay. Nine. But she is in full blown puberty. And acting like I imagine twelve year old girls acting. And having headaches all the time (which I've now been told is a sign of hormonal shifts). She needs showers everyday and it is a constant battle to make her understand that. She suddenly had some kind of cognitive leap recently and now understands things, deep things, that I can't even articulate here right now. She is CONSTANTLY asking me what unfamiliar words mean, in a way that leads me to believe she making up for the language gap that has been following her around for years in a matter of months. She notices clothing and boys and innuendos in ways that bother me, but not in a really bad way. Just a nagging sense of the reality that she is growing up. FAST. Fearfully fast.
She still loves and plays with her dolls. She still wants bows in her hair. She still wants hugs and cuddles more recently than she ever has. She talks to me more than she ever has. She is charming and smart and organized and motivated and many things that I will not and can not ever be that amaze and inspire me. She sees things in this unique way that I cannot explain or duplicate. I LOVE HER! From the lip gloss sparkling on her lips to the bangles always clanking on her wrists to the converse high tops on her feet.
She is my Maria.
She is nine, okay. Nine. But she is in full blown puberty. And acting like I imagine twelve year old girls acting. And having headaches all the time (which I've now been told is a sign of hormonal shifts). She needs showers everyday and it is a constant battle to make her understand that. She suddenly had some kind of cognitive leap recently and now understands things, deep things, that I can't even articulate here right now. She is CONSTANTLY asking me what unfamiliar words mean, in a way that leads me to believe she making up for the language gap that has been following her around for years in a matter of months. She notices clothing and boys and innuendos in ways that bother me, but not in a really bad way. Just a nagging sense of the reality that she is growing up. FAST. Fearfully fast.
She still loves and plays with her dolls. She still wants bows in her hair. She still wants hugs and cuddles more recently than she ever has. She talks to me more than she ever has. She is charming and smart and organized and motivated and many things that I will not and can not ever be that amaze and inspire me. She sees things in this unique way that I cannot explain or duplicate. I LOVE HER! From the lip gloss sparkling on her lips to the bangles always clanking on her wrists to the converse high tops on her feet.
She is my Maria.
