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Oct. 16th, 2005 04:25 pmI have so much for which to be thankful. Sometimes it scares me. Like I'm waiting for the bomb to drop, the calm before the storm, or something.
The girls did really well in church this morning. Luci had her whiny and pouty and "I can't stand this" face on from the minute we got to church, but she never screamed or got really disruptive. I did take her to the back of the church for a long stint where she wandered around and sang Jesus Loves Me softly to herself. I really need to get some English Orthodox chant CDs and play them for her. She needs something beyond Jesus Loves Me. At one point she looked up at the huge icon of Christ on the ceiling, almost falling over backward to gaze at it fully, and then softly sighed "I love Jesus." This kid has such a sweet, pure faith, it overwhelms me. But she is so kinesthetic (is that the word?). She can't stop moving, she must be doing all the time and she cannot be quiet if her body is still. She sings and talks *constantly* in the car when her body is forced into stillness. If she is quiet and still at the same time, then she is asleep, I guarantee it. I can't help sort of wishing she was a boy so she could serve in the altar in a few years. Having something to *do* during the service, some responsibility would really help her concentrate. Several people have commented to me that she is more like a boy in her need to move and be rough and tumble and make noise, than a girl, whatever that means. I agree to an extent, as in, the other two girls, though they have their "must move, too much energy to contain" moments, they don't seem to have as much trouble as Luci does. At almost three years old, both of them had no trouble being nominally quiet for an hour and a half for a church service.
Sometimes I do worry about her. I get this sinking feeling in my stomach sometimes. The biggest worry I have is that her threshold for stress is way low. She is really easily overstimulated and needs to eat every two hours at least to maintain any semblance of equilibrium. I'm well aware of several foods that set her off. She has the shortest fuse I've ever seen in a kid or an adult. But I cannot always pinpoint the cause of her distress and then I know she is suffering and it kills me not to be able to help. I'm planning to bring all these things up at her next well-child, though I'm really nervous to do so, as I do not want them giving her some kind of label. At some point, I'm well aware, there may have to be a label, but right now...well, we'll cross that bridge when we get there.
The girls did really well in church this morning. Luci had her whiny and pouty and "I can't stand this" face on from the minute we got to church, but she never screamed or got really disruptive. I did take her to the back of the church for a long stint where she wandered around and sang Jesus Loves Me softly to herself. I really need to get some English Orthodox chant CDs and play them for her. She needs something beyond Jesus Loves Me. At one point she looked up at the huge icon of Christ on the ceiling, almost falling over backward to gaze at it fully, and then softly sighed "I love Jesus." This kid has such a sweet, pure faith, it overwhelms me. But she is so kinesthetic (is that the word?). She can't stop moving, she must be doing all the time and she cannot be quiet if her body is still. She sings and talks *constantly* in the car when her body is forced into stillness. If she is quiet and still at the same time, then she is asleep, I guarantee it. I can't help sort of wishing she was a boy so she could serve in the altar in a few years. Having something to *do* during the service, some responsibility would really help her concentrate. Several people have commented to me that she is more like a boy in her need to move and be rough and tumble and make noise, than a girl, whatever that means. I agree to an extent, as in, the other two girls, though they have their "must move, too much energy to contain" moments, they don't seem to have as much trouble as Luci does. At almost three years old, both of them had no trouble being nominally quiet for an hour and a half for a church service.
Sometimes I do worry about her. I get this sinking feeling in my stomach sometimes. The biggest worry I have is that her threshold for stress is way low. She is really easily overstimulated and needs to eat every two hours at least to maintain any semblance of equilibrium. I'm well aware of several foods that set her off. She has the shortest fuse I've ever seen in a kid or an adult. But I cannot always pinpoint the cause of her distress and then I know she is suffering and it kills me not to be able to help. I'm planning to bring all these things up at her next well-child, though I'm really nervous to do so, as I do not want them giving her some kind of label. At some point, I'm well aware, there may have to be a label, but right now...well, we'll cross that bridge when we get there.
