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Apr. 21st, 2007 12:04 amWe had a good, busy, exhausting day. I should be asleep. But, predictably, I laid in bed for awhile and couldn't drop off, so got up again. Luci has slept much better the last two nights. I hope tonight continues the trend.
My children were all really adorable and lovable today. Not that they aren't always, today was just especially nice for no particular reason.
Brad and I had an interesting conversation about the next step after he finishes school. The probability is high that he will be deployed pretty quickly, whether we move again or not. He wanted to know what I would do...stay where we were, or go "home". Honestly, I cannot come up with a good reason to stay ANYWHERE other than "home" if he is deployed for a year or more. I really can't. Brad seemed to surprised at this. If my kids were in a school, that would be a good reason not to move for a year. But without that, I cannot come up with any community ties that would make staying attractive. Even if I made some good friends...they would be friends of a year or less and why pass up the chance to live by the grandparents for a year, spend time with them and have that extra support, just for that? Maybe I'm missing a piece of the puzzle here, but I can't come up with any good enough reason to battle it out alone. I'd have to have a REALLY strong network of CLOSE (both emotionally and geographically) friends and someone that would check up on us on a regular basis for me to even feel safe staying somewhere other than "home" for a year with Brad gone. I just can't imagine that happening here in the next nine months. My neighbors are nice people, but not close friends, there are some promising friendships developing with church people, but they all live 30 minutes or more away from us...I just don't see it happening, you know? What am I missing? If we moved somewhere else and then Brad was deployed, the situation would be even worse as I'd just be starting out with growing roots. I don't see anyway that would change. I suppose if we lived somewhere for two years or so, and I had a hefty support network built, I MIGHT consider it, but the probability of that is not high. Most likely if we moved, he would be deployed fairly quickly and there would be NO time for building a network. So why would I stay?
We also discussed the timeline for when we might find out what the next step might be. How's that for vague? The timeline is nice and vague too. We might get "the list" in August for a January move, or they might push us to the spring rotation in which case our "list" wouldn't come out until October or so. Until then we don't even know what the possiblities are. I wish I could say I'm not anxious and que sera, sera and all that jazz, but I can't. It is, quite frankly, driving me a little bonckers.
My children were all really adorable and lovable today. Not that they aren't always, today was just especially nice for no particular reason.
Brad and I had an interesting conversation about the next step after he finishes school. The probability is high that he will be deployed pretty quickly, whether we move again or not. He wanted to know what I would do...stay where we were, or go "home". Honestly, I cannot come up with a good reason to stay ANYWHERE other than "home" if he is deployed for a year or more. I really can't. Brad seemed to surprised at this. If my kids were in a school, that would be a good reason not to move for a year. But without that, I cannot come up with any community ties that would make staying attractive. Even if I made some good friends...they would be friends of a year or less and why pass up the chance to live by the grandparents for a year, spend time with them and have that extra support, just for that? Maybe I'm missing a piece of the puzzle here, but I can't come up with any good enough reason to battle it out alone. I'd have to have a REALLY strong network of CLOSE (both emotionally and geographically) friends and someone that would check up on us on a regular basis for me to even feel safe staying somewhere other than "home" for a year with Brad gone. I just can't imagine that happening here in the next nine months. My neighbors are nice people, but not close friends, there are some promising friendships developing with church people, but they all live 30 minutes or more away from us...I just don't see it happening, you know? What am I missing? If we moved somewhere else and then Brad was deployed, the situation would be even worse as I'd just be starting out with growing roots. I don't see anyway that would change. I suppose if we lived somewhere for two years or so, and I had a hefty support network built, I MIGHT consider it, but the probability of that is not high. Most likely if we moved, he would be deployed fairly quickly and there would be NO time for building a network. So why would I stay?
We also discussed the timeline for when we might find out what the next step might be. How's that for vague? The timeline is nice and vague too. We might get "the list" in August for a January move, or they might push us to the spring rotation in which case our "list" wouldn't come out until October or so. Until then we don't even know what the possiblities are. I wish I could say I'm not anxious and que sera, sera and all that jazz, but I can't. It is, quite frankly, driving me a little bonckers.
