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[mommydama]

Dreams are such strange things. Sometimes they disappear like morning mist as soon as I wake up, completely forgotten. Sometimes they linger all day long, haunting me. Today is a haunting day. I dreamed that my parents died in a car accident when I was a child, but somehow I dissassociated and never acknowledged that. I was raised by my parents' friends in FL at the time they were killed (people I haven't seen or heard from since we moved away from FL when I was ten year old), but believed they were actually my parents. My sisters were there too. It was so odd. The dream actually began with me, as an adult at a party with all my family and friends and suddenly "waking up" to discover these people were not who I thought they were and my parents were dead and I began screaming and crying hysterically and then I really woke up. With a splitting headache.

I promptly got online and searched for the names of these people who raised me in my dream that I haven't seen or heard anything about in 23 years. Didn't find them. Not sure I'd recognize them if I did.

Wow. I still feel like I'm in that dream. Maybe I'll call my mom to reassure myself that I'm awake and she is actually alive.

Geez, I miss my mom.